the end of the sorrow?

ok,skang aku kat rumah dia lagi. she read my blog,again this time. oh my. aku jadi nervous everytime dia baca. i dont know,but somehow,aku rasa dia suka baca blog aku. maybe because i spill my feelings all over here. ntah. anyway, dia baca..and baca lagi. urghhh,malu la weh. but then aku suka.. :D spent the whole night talking,bout her,bout me,bout what really happened when we were together.. :)

and aku skip keje lagi this time, hahaha. i dont know why. bila lepak dgn dia,aku rasa mcm malas pegi mana mana. hahaha. u can ask me to go to Miami skali pun, i just dont wanna go anywhere. shes lying next to me,and im holding her hand. :) :) :) tp aku tanak dia rasa uncomfortable,aku tanak dia layan aku sebab aku suka dia dan dia jaga hati aku. hmm. but i cant help it. holding her hands is like having a gun in your hand,u can do anything and u feel no fear. im holding the world at the moment. :D :D :D i just dont care. even to update this blog. hahahaha. aku siap lupa nak update apa. sebab i was 'high' on her. :P shes my greatest addiction. my ectascy. my drugs.

ok seriously, aku tanak balik kampung,and aku tanak dia balik kampung.shes going back for a long time. i cant do this. im gonna miss her. its gonna be a missing-treatment. aku tatau cemane nak handle. shes going back at 8pm. aiyoooooo. anyway dia ajak lepak aney, so we went down lepak minum. hehe. time ni dia blom tido, its been more than 24hours dia tak tido. dan dia mamai semacam. cakap pun melalut..i mean takde la melalut,tp mcm melalut la.ahaha. ah im gonna skip this. sebab aku lupa semua sebab bz tgk dia melalut in the sweet way. hehehe :)

i dont know why,looking at her,smiling,laughing,really make my day. kalau aku jd buntu,pk mcm mcm,then tgk dia,aku jadi ok. even bila aku pk pasal dia,how scare i am to lose her, aku tgk dia,aku jadi yakin. yeap. im gonna do this, no i dont care bout the risk. :D shes everything. suddenly she reminds me of a song. ah its gonna be jiwang lagi in here. hahahaha. who fuckin cares. I AM IN LOVE! so fuck off. ahahaha. anyway heres the lyrics.

Avant - I wanna be

Ooooh Ooooh I wanna be girl let me be
I wanna be everything your man's not
And I'm gonna give you
every little thing I've got
Cause you are more than a man needs
That's why I say you're truly my destiny

I'm gonna get cha
If it takes me until forever
No you don't feel me
if forever turns into never
I'll let you know my love
is just as strong
And for you never just ain't that long (ohh )

[Chorus:]

I wanna be the smile you put on your face
I wanna be your hands when you say your grace
I wanna be where ever is your favorite place (girl)
I just wanna be close

I wanna be the hat you put on your head
I wanna be the sheets you put on your bed
I wanna be the skirt wrapped around your legs (girl)
Ohh I just wanna be close


And even if the day turns into night
I will love you by candlelight
And even if the water starts to run over
I'll be there to put you on my shoulders (oo yeah)

And if it's hard for you to get to sleep{i will}
I will sing you a melody,(yes i will)
I wanna feel this way
Till the end of time, cause I pray one day
that you'll be mine
[Hook 1:]

I wanna be the smile you put on your face (your smile)
I wanna be your hands when you say your grace (can i be girl, can i be}
I wanna be where ever is your favorite place (girl)
I just wanna be close{yeah}

I wanna be the hat you put on your head(can i cover you)
I wanna be the sheets you put on your bed(can i wrap my love around you)
I wanna be the skirt wrapped around your legs (yeah.. oh)
I just wanna be close

See my life is filled(my life is filled)
with up and downs
I'm ok( im ok)
when you're around(yeah)
And when I'm in a storm(in a storm)
and my nights are cold
Reach out your hands( out your hands ) for me to hold(for me to hold)
See you're my queen( my queen )on a throne
and you're the reason (whoa)
For a song (this song) and I can't wait (cant wait)
to fill you up with love (fill you up with love)
Fill you with love


I wanna be the sun,
your stars, and your moon
I wanna be a hot summer day in June( yeah)
I wanna be the smell( be your smell
of your sweet perfume( i wanna be, i wanna be i wanna be. whoa whoa whoa)
or I just wanna be close( close to you yeah)

I wanna be the seed(yeah)
That bare(yeah) ya life brand new ( the seed that bared your life yes )
I wanna be the one
that's so faithful and true( the only one you need
I wanna be the man down that aisle
in that suit, yes
or I just wanna be close..


i heart u. :)