the bliss

10.43am - home - missing her - sleepy as hell

its a new day today,somehow i feel fine,happy and flying. no no,its not what u guys think la. its still KIV,but then its a good sign,as i think lah. anyway,shes at her sister's and going back to melaka afterwards. hmm. i received a blank sms from her at 2.57am. she was sleeping maybe,tertekan kot. haha. anyway pagi tadi i texted her goodmorning.my sister called,dropping my car coz shes going back with my other sister. nice,driving,alone..which is so boring. oh yea, she replied my msg,then normal early morning conversation begins.. :) :) :) im packing my stuffs and the moment. tak byk pun,sumbat sikit sikit sudah.got mine left back in kuantan,so tayah bawa byk sgt. anyway, in the conversation tu, she asked me to diet. haha. aku gemuk sgt la nih. hahaha. ok ok,from now on, im gonna buff up my muscle and diet. haha. maybe itu dia nak kot? ah who cares, if its for her,tadahal la weh. hahaha. dah dah,packing,going for breakfast,i mean a light breakfast la. dia suh diet kot. haha.

12.32pm - home

ok its time, mari balik kampung. yea im excited, ya know, balik,jumpa family, friends seme. tp this time aku drive sorang. aiseh. bosan la. so gerak. received her sms, she just reached her sweet home back in melaka. ok thats relieving. anyway dia complain, panas. aircond rosak and such. ahaha. sian plak. dari dulu dia selalu complain bout how hot is melaka. aiyo. kalau boleh,aku pasang kipas besar kat atas negeri melaka utk dia. :D :D so aku drive,alone, listening to my playlist that i made before i jumped in the car. at first jalan mcm ok,but then right after 1st toll... hmm,as i thought, berjuta manusia nak balik kampung ke pantai timur. WTF weh! lek lek la. dah la skarang baru 1.20pm, pehal nak ramai plak nih, aku da la lapa,dahaga dan bosan. mmg menguji kesabaran amat. ahaha. anyway i was sms-ing with her, thank God dia ada layan sms. agak cool sikit la kan. aku duk sengih je memanjang, ahaha. maybe thats the good part of being with her, she make me cold when im hot.her sweetness isnt it? huhu. so i drove off thru karak yg beribu kereta, slow-moving, then after 2nd toll, jalan agak clear, i stepped on the pedal. reached temerloh in 40mins. whoa! ahaha.

so im gonna skipped my driving period. sampai je kuantan,singgah my mum's office to pick up some stuffs and house key. my mum with her friends pegi mana ntah. so aku balik, lepak and rehat. then boredom melanda. got nothing to watch on astro, the sound of cats' "meow" pun jadi menyampah. haha. did call my friends to lepak at kopitiam. but then, semua takde. simon blk muar, eki bz with gf so as hafiz. mirul was working, aiman n mat are in shah alam (putoh pak korang la,cakap nak lepak ktn) and lelain tu aku malas call. aku dah start nyampah. bosan bosan bosan. tatau apsal,but this time rasa bosan yg hebat. normally tade la bosan mcm ni.i guess maybe aku dah biasa lepak with her. i mean, bosan seh semua mende. so di atas sebab bosan, aku melepak rumah,baca surat2 yg aku blom baca. then i texted her "im hungry, sleepy,boring and missing you"... :) then she replied "Hehehe.. Asal xmkn ag? G la mkn n pas2 tdo." ...i replied, then she went "Wiwit diet seh.. Hehe.. ala tdo je la. xgemuk pun. ape la. Ko rindu aku ekh. Hehe. Ko wat ak rase laen." oh my..is that a good sign? dia rasa lain? or am i just perasan sorang2 ? ahahaha. anyway aku reply lagi, then dia cakap "Sikitnye mkn. mkn la lg. sikit sgt 2.nanti saket perot gle. Ak siap rase laen dow. Da la ckp ngan ko,aku kau.Pas2 ko ckp rindu2 plak" hahahahaha. but does it matter what call-name we use? i dont care. u can call me babi,i miss u,i dont care. hahaha. maybe its awkward for her. but i wanna be true to her.this is me. but if she finds it weird, im gonna change it la. as long as shes comfortable with it. anyway, aku reply lagi...then "ehehe budus.. tp aku xbiase la gle. Da la ckp ko aku,pas2 ckp rindu plak. Laen mcm bunyi dia..budus,budus,budus" - next msg , the best msg of the day "Ahaha.. B0ngoks. Btw,thanks. N u knw what,i think i miss u t0o. Ak nk mkn. Text u later. xyah sengih lelama. malu org nampak" Wahaahahahahahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. ok im smiling until now, right at this moment. ahahahahaha. im suprise and i dont know what to say. good god i miss and i love u girl. urghhh! hahahah. BRB.

9.17pm

mak aku call,suruh dtg hyatt,ade org nak jumpa. adui,malas betol aku. aku runner sana,jumpa la partner mak aku ni yg beriya sangat nak masuk tender kat office aku. aku tatau ape masalah dia ni, sampai cari aku, padahal masuk je la kan. macam susah sgt. apa da. anyway, aku rindu dia. yes, like hell. its been years aku tak rindu org macam ni. last time aku rindu intan..now shes gone,so move on to the next phase in life lah.now,its her. :) anyway im going back now. malas aku nak layan pakcik ni lelame. poyo bleh tahan. aku tak suke lepak dgn org mcm ni. bisnes 24 7. come on,live life la.keje keje juga. dah abis keje,chill la kan. apa da.

10.48pm - home (kuantan)

ok,bosan aku dah tahap nak mati. seriously. so aku call her. no answer.probably dia bz sebab esok raya kot. im just missing her. atleast nak dgr her voice dah cukup. then she called back. hahahahaha. suka,saya suka.hahaha. kemak. anyway aku rasa mcm nak top up phone dia so that dia bleh online. but she dont want to.ok,as u wish my dear. :) so aku call apis, dia bz sikit,but then bila setel nnt dia call. aku lepak dlm bilik,ngadap lappie. then mirul call, ajak lepak. hahaha at last! kuar jugak. jahanam bosan. lain2 semua bz. adoi. so aku pegi pick up mirul yg agak lembab, dekat half an hour tunggu. anyway, dari tadi aku duk sms dia. hehe. well, atleast she keeps me away from boredom teritory. plus,i miss her as hell.

anyway, pick up mirul,straight to coffeestreet. agak ramai manusia, yg mana semua aku kenal. letih juga nak tegur semua org. lagipun semua tanya soalan sama "mana keje skang? kawin blom? masyuk la?" bosan aku nak jawab. so go away people. haha.lepak dgn mirul, texting her. hee hee.i wished her slamat hari raya, and i told her that i love her. is it too early? im not sure,but she already knew it kan? dia da masuk sini kan? so what the hell,im gonna set it straight this time. then dia reply la mcm bahan aku. hahaha siau btol. but i dont care. this is what i feel for her. lantak la aku ni jiwang jahanam ke hawau tahap bangau ke. hahaha. mams sama korang la. hahaha. pastu si mirul sibuk cite pasal amcash investment ape lancau ntah,aku tak fokus langsung. hahaha. sorry la bro. sapa suh present time aku bz sms ni? harapan...hahaha.

then i asked her napa dia nak baca blog ni sgt? dia cakap dia suka membaca. hahaha. that is one cute reason. haha. so aku korek lagi and aku kasitau that im hoping for her to like it. then dia admit la dia suka. oh god. hahahaha. i malu la u. hahaha. anyway aku jadi segan nak taip ape dlm ni. hahaha. and shes reading it now. urgh. tutup mukaaaa!! hahahaha. but aku tatau kenapa mlm ni,aku rasa aku nak kasitau aku sayang dia, aku miss dia. maybe sebab aku tak jumpa dia hari ni kot. im addicted to her la.aiyaaaaa!

12.21am - tc

ahaha,mana lagi kalau duduk kuantan ni,pegi mana2 pun,surely end up lepak tc. hahaha. tp tc skang lain dah. lama btol aku tak dtg. its getting nicer la. mcd pun cool,so as kfc, the scenery,the beaches. nice nice. wish she was here with me. enjoying these things. anyway, still texting her. shes getting mamai,ahaha sleepy la tu,which is friggin cute! haha. shuuhhh! im smiling while typing this. haha. and i cant stop smiling now. hahaha.

2.21am - home (kuantan)

now im back at home, just dropped mirul at his place. ingatkan nak browse around her page tonite. but then AKU TERTINGGAL CHARGER di kl! urgghhhh! what was i thinking??? mende paling penting! adoiii. dah la ni kuantan,celah mana nak cari charger at 2am ni. aku pun kuar pegi petronas, sebab normally petronas ada jual. drive la ke petronas...petronas plak tutuppppp!!! esok raya plakkkkk... terrrbaekkkkk! adoi. so aku call apis yg dah nak tido, dia cakap takde. call mirul, takde. adi,takde juga. eki and gg, takde. aku give up. aku kene save batt so aku bleh upload ni tonite. haha. siau lah. dah la before tido aku nak baca sms sms dia. adoi. fuck ah weh. apsal la handphone ni pakai bateri. apsal tak pakai petrol ke air ke. ish. budus la manufacturer handphone ni. invent la handphone yg tak pakai batt,guna bahan semula jadi. air ke sayur ke. ok aku membebel pasal batt sebab aku marah. dah dah. anyway aku draft post ni dlm lappie,then upload kejap. then disconnect phone cecepat. nnt batt weak,taleh baca sms. :D :P so this is it for tonight. even tho i got the "aku tak cakap ape ape pon" answer from her,im smiling at the moment. :) which is a great feeling that i never felt before. seriously. maybe dulu aku fall in
love time skolah,so i skipped few years. then now,its different. im 25, i can think wisely and such, and im in love. whoa. thats a great feeling weh.maybe sebab ni org jadi gila kot. aiyak. maybe its worth to be crazy la kan. :) anyway im sleepy, tomorrow hari raya. so im gonna wish u readers Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha, Maaf Zahir Batin. and pls DONT come to my house, aku tak celebrate this year. aku berdua dgn mak aku je. urgh. the end of my speechless notes.

P/S: still speechless ke? aku rasa aku dah cakap byk kali kat dia and dia da baca blog ni. hahaha. let me think bout rename this blog later k? anyway i changed my relationship status in fb from "single" to "its complicated". hmm.

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