the broken deal

1.14am - her place - rocked and stoned

Ok, yea i know. If u already read the previous post,u definitely will say "ek ela,lepak juga sana. Cakap tanak la apa la" but what the hell.

Yes,i miss her so much. Tambah lg dia ignoring me ptg td. Aiseh. then roommate aku balik. Bawa air batu terbaek. Aku pun pekena sikit. Bleh tahan juga la. td ptg kan aku sms dia, so dia mmg tade reply trus. Tp td aku ada call dia,dia ok,stoned sikit. Ajak aku lepak sana. Dah la aku rindu dia,laju la aku.

So aku sampai,ade la 4 5 org kwn housemate dia lepak buat keje sambil pekena and kawan dia dari kampung yg dia nk tumpang blk melaka esok. Aku tatau apsal. Nampak dia,aku jd diam. Tatau nak ckp apa. dgn org lain aku ok je. Tp bila dia duk dekat,aku jd diam. Dia suh aku bgtau apsal aku diam skang n smlm. Aku ckp esok aku cite. Aiyo. Bahaya ni. Boleh kantoi ni. So aku decide utk chow.

Sampai lif block aku, lif main klaka plak. Tanak tutup pintu. Haram. So tgh layan kepala 2 brg ni,aku pun naik la tangga. Berbelas tingkat gak umah aku. Sampai je, dia sms ckp "tape aa kalau tanak cite"..aiseh

Aku ckp aku bukan tanak cite,aku nak cite,aku kena cite. Tp bukan skang,depan dia. Aku takut nnt lepas aku cite,dia lain. Makin jauh dr aku. Tp aku reply "aku nk bgtau tp segan la. Nnt la aku gagah,aku ckp" hahaha

Skang tgh layan sms dia,so nnt aku update. Chow.

1.46am - home

Im back. Ok its 3.22am,still not sleeping. She texted me just now,saying "tak payah la cite". Hmm.guess its the time to tell her alil bit bout this. I mean this feelings la. So i replied "ok,i'll let u know kalau kau tak tdo and reply sms aku"...then...dia diam. Hmm. That was it. :/ back to the start,again. nice.. :(

And tomorrow,she'll b going back to melaka. im not sure for how long she'll be there. May God give me strength. Plus im workin tomorrow,so goodnite blog. U've been quite a good reader to this silly life story of mine. Til then, this is tonite's speechless notes.