the gate of heaven?

1.58am - home (still in kuantan)

yeap,its been 24hours since aku update. yeah,many things happened as im updating this. yesterday,lastnight and even now. cant explain what i felt before and now.

anyway lets get it on. yesterday tgh syok sms dia, dia hilang for a couple of hours. tot she went sleeping, so i waited. around 7pm she texted me saying sorry,tadi ade hal bla bla bla. well,i felt weird,normally she wud let me know if anything happened ke ade hal ape ape ke,i mean, specifically telling me. but this time,somehow,i felt like shes hiding something.so i started asking her whats that 'hal' that she was talking about. dia delay,elak,tamau cite. hmm..something fishy.

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well,aku tanak serabutkan dia dgn soalan pasal 'hal' tu,so aku move on. tanya routine questions. hehe. even aku rasa dia hiding something,somehow aku mcm tak kisah sebab..ah,jiwang..yea,sebab aku suka dia..hahaha. so what the hell, mampos la kan dgn rasa ptg tadi tu..but dia cakap dia nak cita. anyway,she texted me with the word 'syg'. oh Lord. hahaharam.yea go ahead laugh u scum,im in love,so what? so did ur parents,now fuck off. haha. aku cam erghhh...am i living in a dream or what? did God fulfill my dream? biau betui. hahaha. anyway,sesambil aku perasan tu,aku mcm push sikit sikit la bout 'hal',tanak la over. aku nak dia selesa,even when talking with me. udin cakap dia akan call tonite..but then dia ended up sleeping. its ok,i know shes tired. staying in melaka is tiring for her,u know,the housework,the lil kids and such. plus dia sangap rokok lagi. yeap,wish that i can move melaka right next to pahang. :)


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yea,i got up early,got her sms. :) ok la,i got up coz of her sms,which i was waiting for it la. haha. i was so happy,coz normally,aku yg start sms dia. jarang la dia sms aku dulu. dia mmg mcm tu. but anyway,she called me using her house phone. yeap, happy again. hahaha. then i transfered few ringgit to her celcom's so that she can online. next, YM. :) chatted for few mins. then dia nak buat keje,so aku layan udin while waiting for her. lama juga la. aku tunggu pun lama,ini kan dia yg buat keje,lagi la lama...letih plak tu. around 2 baru siap. my poor lil girl. aiyo. anyway aku mcm tak lapa langsung,i dont know y. padahal sebelum ni bangun je, KRIUKKKKKK perut aku sound suruh makan. hahaha. so dia pun cite la...

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ok aku malas cite lagi pasal hal tu. yeap. i was being a jealous s.o.a.b. the worst of it. fuck la weh. apsal la aku mcm ni. adoi. making her uncomfortable telling me anything. aiyo. im sorry babe.ish. anyway,the thing was,i was missing her,badly. plus the thing shes hiding tu,provoke me lagi. adoi. im so so so sorry. hmm. anyway, here are the conversation of tonite's session. go on read it,at 1st it look bad, but keep reading.. :)


YM SESSION WITH HER

Kerry: babe,status kau tu menujukkan aku srabut kan kau
lissa mohamed: erm..
lissa mohamed: aku mandi ptg tadi tue la
lissa mohamed: mkn ptg tadi gak
lissa mohamed: aku mkn banyak nak mampos
Kerry: okok lom?
lissa mohamed: aku duk sini mkn cam hanjeng
lissa mohamed: heheh
lissa mohamed: belom
lissa mohamed: last aku isap rokok ptg semalam la
Kerry: tu bo
Kerry: lain
lissa mohamed: aku ade isap rokok gak
Kerry: ok
lissa mohamed: bo aku kene sedapo jerk
Kerry: bo jugak
lissa mohamed: tak rase weh
lissa mohamed: isap rokok lagi best kot
Kerry: ok
Kerry: kau srabut sebab aku suka kau kan?
Kerry: aku rasa kau srabut
Kerry: sebab aku
Kerry: aku duk sms dopopat jam
Kerry: srabut sial
Kerry: kan
Kerry: ?
lissa mohamed: ntah
lissa mohamed: biase je
Kerry: aku rasa kalau aku tak cakap,takkan jd mcmni
lissa mohamed: ala
lissa mohamed: lek la
lissa mohamed: ape da
Kerry: sbb kau mmg tade hati pon
lissa mohamed: nak regret plak
Kerry: ah alang2 aku cakap lepas ni
Kerry: aku nak cakap
lissa mohamed: sial lo ko
Kerry: tp kau pk sebab kawan
Kerry: kan?
Kerry: sebab mende ni tak susah pon
Kerry: sendiri bikin susah
Kerry: kan
Kerry: aku yg cari masalah,pegi suka kau
Kerry: siap lelebih
Kerry: mcm bodo
lissa mohamed: ape la ko nie
lissa mohamed: erm..
Kerry: sebab aku tau,kau pon tade ayat dah
Kerry: tatau nak cakap ape
Kerry: kan
Kerry: nak jaga hati nye pasal
Kerry: gitu
Kerry: aku siap prasan
Kerry: haha bodo
Kerry: dah la,aku nak gerak la
Kerry: chow
BUZZ!!!
lissa mohamed: benci la ko camnie
Kerry: aku cemane plak
lissa mohamed: tadi soh aku on9
lissa mohamed: pastuh camnie
Kerry: ala
Kerry: aku da rase dari aritu lg
Kerry: aku tatau nak cakap cemane kot
Kerry: aku tak rasa kau ade hati pon
lissa mohamed: ko nie
lissa mohamed: iskh
Kerry: ape
Kerry: cakap ah la
lissa mohamed: erm..
Kerry: aku da panas tinge dgn mak aku tadi
Kerry: so kau bleh cakap ape ape je
lissa mohamed: ko yg pk camtuh
Kerry: aku ready
Kerry: aku tak pk, aku rasa
Kerry: aku nafikan mende aku rasa tu,sebab aku suka kau
lissa mohamed: ape2 la weh
lissa mohamed: suke ati ko la
Kerry: sbb kau akan elak
Kerry: mcm ni skanran i
lissa mohamed: elak ape
lissa mohamed: gile
Kerry: skarang
lissa mohamed: ape
lissa mohamed: elak ghapo dio
Kerry: sebab aku tatau nak cakap camne dah
lissa mohamed: eerm.........
Kerry: dan kau pon takde ayat nak reply dah
lissa mohamed: ko rase aku tak suke ko
lissa mohamed: aku tak ckp cuz ko membe aku
lissa mohamed: aku ade je
Kerry: aku nak kau terus tereang la weh
lissa mohamed: aku tak suke ckp aku kan suke diam
lissa mohamed: ape
lissa mohamed: iskhh
Kerry: susah kan?
Kerry: susah nak cakap ape dlm hati kan?
Kerry: mcm tu la aku aritu beb
lissa mohamed: ye la
Kerry: aku tau mende ni senang,tapi nak cakap susah
Kerry: risiko
lissa mohamed: ye la
lissa mohamed: tau
BUZZ!!!
Kerry: skang aku seska sorang2
Kerry: padan ngam muka aku
Kerry: hahaha
lissa mohamed: ko ckp ape
lissa mohamed: hurm......
Kerry: aku malas nak srabutkan kau lagi
Kerry: aku tau kau srabut
Kerry: kalau aku ,aku pun srabut jugak
Kerry: ah babi tu dah blk
lissa mohamed: asal ko camnie syal
Kerry: kejap plak kuar
lissa mohamed: da arr
Kerry: asal aku camni?
lissa mohamed: mals aku nak ym ngan ko lagi
Kerry: aku mmg dari aritu mcm ni
Kerry: aku takut kau layan aku sebab jaga hati aku
Kerry: aku tanak org fake seh
Kerry: tp aku tatau kau cemane
Kerry: susah nak predict
Kerry: dan aku takut nak redah je
lissa mohamed: da la weh aku mls nak ckp lagi
Kerry: nnt aku frust mcm kimak
Kerry: tgk skang pon,kau lari
lissa mohamed: bye'
Kerry: see
Kerry: kau elak
lissa mohamed: elak ape gile
lissa mohamed: aduss
lissa mohamed: tekanan nye aku
Kerry: ok ok fine
Kerry: tayah ckp
Kerry: simpan je
Kerry: okeng?
lissa mohamed: ko nak tau ape
Kerry: ape kau rasa la
Kerry: ngoks
Kerry: hmm
Kerry: tape tape
lissa mohamed: bleh tak ko pk,ko mmg suke aku da lame tapi ko baru bg tau aku seminggu..
Kerry: so ?
lissa mohamed: n ko nak aku bg tau answer die asap..
lissa mohamed: nape ko tak leh tgu kalu ko suke aku
Kerry: aku ade tanye, is there hope in here?
lissa mohamed: nape sebelum ko g tau aku ko leh hadap sume bende tapi skunk tak leh
Kerry: ye aku leh tunggu
Kerry: tp aku dah over
lissa mohamed: over ape
Kerry: sebelom ni aku bleh hadapi sebab kau tatau aku suka kau
Kerry: paham
lissa mohamed: ok,ko pk lak situation aku ngn jahanam tuh..
lissa mohamed: aku ilek jerk'
Kerry: ?
lissa mohamed: ko rileks la
lissa mohamed: aku sabar je
Kerry: and in the end ?
lissa mohamed: ye la
Kerry: worth it ?
lissa mohamed: sebab aku mals dah
lissa mohamed: aku tak tau ending die
Kerry: berbaloi tak
lissa mohamed: sebab bg aku da abes,tak tau arr bagi die
Kerry: ok kau bayang kan
Kerry: aku tunggu kau 10 tahun
Kerry: last last,without saying no, kau kawin dgn org lain
Kerry: bodo tak aku ?
lissa mohamed: bodoh la
lissa mohamed: tapi dlm dunia nie tak ya la wat camtuh
lissa mohamed: erm..
lissa mohamed: susa la
lissa mohamed: nak ckp
Kerry: ok
lissa mohamed: skunk nie
lissa mohamed: sume org bukan baek
lissa mohamed: ntah la
Kerry: ok
Kerry: so itu yg aku nak tau
lissa mohamed: aku tak suh ko tgu aku lagi 10 tahun
Kerry: kau rasa aku perlu tunggu atau tak payah
Kerry: sebab aku mmg akan tunggu
Kerry: tp aku gila la
lissa mohamed: takkan ko pk aku suh ko tgu setahun
Kerry: kacau srabutkan kau mcm skang ni
lissa mohamed: serabotkan ape
Kerry: sms kau 24 7
Kerry: aku jenis nak stay close
Kerry: sebab aku tanak kau serabut
lissa mohamed: tak la
Kerry: dulu ex aku yg clake tu dia fake cakap tak srabut,bila dia tunjuk true color, dia kutuk aku cakap aku srabutkan idup dia sebenarnye
Kerry: aku tanak mcm tu
lissa mohamed: tak la
lissa mohamed: aku biase je
lissa mohamed: kadang2 aku serabot la
Kerry: hm ok
lissa mohamed: kadang2 biase jer
Kerry: got the answer
lissa mohamed: lagipon aku tak rase pape pon cuz aku takde wat ape
Kerry: ye la,tp kau srabut la juga dgn aku kan
lissa mohamed: maybe kalu aku da kije ade bnyak masalah ko msg2 aku serabot la
lissa mohamed: skunk tak pon
lissa mohamed: biase jek
lissa mohamed: ari tuh la
Kerry: aritu ape?
lissa mohamed: arituh la
lissa mohamed: adus
lissa mohamed: b4 dis la
Kerry: ari mana ni?
Kerry: ok
Kerry: aku tanak srabutkan kau
lissa mohamed: aku tak ingat la
Kerry: sebab dulu aku serabutkan org,org tu ended up fake
lissa mohamed: lek la
Kerry: lek la ni
Kerry: aku nak kau pun selesa dgn aku
Kerry: kau serabut,tu tak selesa namanya
Kerry: tul tak
lissa mohamed: arituh la gile
Kerry: aritu tu bila gila ?
Kerry: ari tu aritu, ari ape
lissa mohamed: ko jgn la ckp banyak2 camnie
lissa mohamed: camnie aku serabot
Kerry: ok ok
Kerry: sorry
lissa mohamed: aku pon tak ingat
Kerry: aku tatau la weh
Kerry: teruk seh aku
lissa mohamed: ape yg teruk
Kerry: gila kan kau la
Kerry: aku tatau apsal
lissa mohamed: aduss
lissa mohamed: cemane ko leh gile kat aku
Kerry: mana aku tau
Kerry: merundun seme la
Kerry: kacau sial
lissa mohamed: aku tak tau ape yg aku ade
lissa mohamed: ramai ag pompuan hot kat luar tuh
Kerry: aku tak peduli dah
Kerry: hot pale bana
lissa mohamed: ye la
lissa mohamed: yg tinggi
lissa mohamed: body best
Kerry: aku tanak tinggi
Kerry: tanak body best
lissa mohamed: boobs baekkssss
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: tanak boobs baekkss
lissa mohamed: bodoh
Kerry: aku dah jumpa ape aku nak, kau
lissa mohamed: yg keje best2
lissa mohamed: yg cun2
Kerry: keje bleh cari
lissa mohamed: yg cute2
Kerry: cun tak kemana
lissa mohamed: bejuta
Kerry: kau cute jugak
Kerry: seme ade jawapan
lissa mohamed: cuter than me
lissa mohamed: banyak kot
Kerry: takde pon sebab sebab kau tu aku taleh jawab
lissa mohamed: yg baek
Kerry: cuter than u is god
Kerry: prangai tu bleh ubah, tu fungsi aku tlg kau
Kerry: sebab aku syg kau,aku kene tlg kau
Kerry: bukan sebab aku tlg kau,aku syg kau
Kerry: aku dah cakap dah aritu
Kerry: aku jd tak nampak dah semua
lissa mohamed: ye la2
Kerry: yg ade kau je
lissa mohamed: iskh ko nie
Kerry: apsal ni weh
Kerry: aku teruk gila weh
Kerry: tlg la weh
Kerry: adoi
lissa mohamed: mane la aku tau
lissa mohamed: ko tak pna camnie ker
Kerry: takk
Kerry: siyes tak
Kerry: aku malu seh
Kerry: malu dgn kau
Kerry: adoi
lissa mohamed: heheh
lissa mohamed: lek la
Kerry: tp aku taleh handle
Kerry: utk malukan diri mcm ni
Kerry: sebab ape aku rasa ni
Kerry: susah aku nak explain
lissa mohamed: yer aku paham
lissa mohamed: nanti esok aku jumpe ko kay
Kerry: maybe tuhan tu adil
Kerry: aku tanak jumpa kau
lissa mohamed: asal
lissa mohamed: ko taknak jumpe aku
lissa mohamed: betul..?
lissa mohamed: ok
Kerry: ala
lissa mohamed: aku balik arsa
lissa mohamed: rasa
Kerry: kau jgn ah malu kan aku
Kerry: aku nak jumpa kau s gt
lissa mohamed: ape
Kerry: tp aku takut aku malu kan diri
Kerry: gile kan kau
lissa mohamed: takde la
lissa mohamed: ye ok
Kerry: hegeh hegeh
lissa mohamed: tak
Kerry: takde sifat laki dah aku ni
Kerry: aku tatau apsal sial
lissa mohamed: aku ok jer
Kerry: kimak la
lissa mohamed: aku siap teharu ade la
Kerry: aku siap jadi baik dgn kau
Kerry: lembut seme
Kerry: bukan aku sial
Kerry: mana dtg side ni aku tatau
Kerry: kimak la
Kerry: malu weh
Kerry: adoi
Kerry: aku tatau nak ngadu pada sapa
lissa mohamed: lek la
lissa mohamed: kay
lissa mohamed: iskh
Kerry: sebab aku tau dlm cite ni,aku malu
lissa mohamed: ok2
lissa mohamed: tade ka
lissa mohamed: la
Kerry: sms kau stiap masa
Kerry: gila ape
lissa mohamed: biase la tuh ade feeling kat org
lissa mohamed: ape la ko nie
Kerry: lain
Kerry: dulu aku ade feeling pon,tak sebengong gini
Kerry: ni dah biol
Kerry: cracked sebab kau
lissa mohamed: ape la ko nie
lissa mohamed: biase jek
lissa mohamed: ni nak balik ke tak nie
Kerry: balik,membe aku lambat
lissa mohamed: aku nak mkn jap
Kerry: tunggu dia anta brg
Kerry: hmm ok
lissa mohamed: mak ko mane
Kerry: ntah
Kerry: aku malas care
Kerry: aku siap malas pk pasal dorg
Kerry: adoi
Kerry: weh abaikan la aku ckp td
Kerry: malu sial
lissa mohamed: ape
lissa mohamed: ko nie selalu ckp ckp camnie
lissa mohamed: sume org akan ckp cam,nie
Kerry: ye ah
Kerry: sebab aku jadi perasan
lissa mohamed: asal eks
lissa mohamed: malu
lissa mohamed: tapi da ckp
lissa mohamed: erm..
Kerry: ntah
lissa mohamed: aku ok jer
lissa mohamed: kay..?
lissa mohamed: tak
Kerry: aku jadi nak cakap, tapi lepas tu aku malu bila pk yg kau biasa je
lissa mohamed: bende nie normal
Kerry: hahahaha
Kerry: oh tak
Kerry: ini tidak normal dlm kamus aku
Kerry: ini gila
Kerry: gila ni bukan buat2
Kerry: gila ni sifat yg dtg sendiri
lissa mohamed: aku bukak webcam
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: adoi
Kerry: ok
Kerry: kau saje wat aku gila kan
Kerry: hahahaha
Kerry: kemak la
Kerry: mana mana?
Kerry: hahahaha
Kerry: nasib baik aku tade webcam
Kerry: kalau tak 100x lagi malu
lissa mohamed: bodoh
lissa mohamed: sorry gerak2
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: okeng
lissa mohamed: aku nak tunjuk fuck
Kerry: bleh tenung kau puas2 eh
Kerry: aku nak print screen
lissa mohamed: bodoh
Kerry: hhaha
Kerry: tunjuk la
lissa mohamed: bodo la
Kerry: nasib baik aku tade
Kerry: kalau tak, aku balas da
lissa mohamed: aku da serabai nie
Kerry: srabai yg sweet okeh
Kerry: tampa kang
lissa mohamed: erm.. mak aku tade
lissa mohamed: yea
Kerry: oo
Kerry: kool sial tgk kau
Kerry: ahhh
Kerry: start dah
Kerry: hahahaha
lissa mohamed: stuck bnyk la
Kerry: hp kot
lissa mohamed: tak sebab lappie panas gle babs
Kerry:
Kerry: tu kipas tu
Kerry: u make me smile
Kerry: hehe
Kerry: tgk kau aku snyum
Kerry: jahanam
Kerry: arghhhhhhh
Kerry: babe?
Kerry: slow ke?
BUZZ!!!
Kerry: girl?
Kerry: u ok?
lissa mohamed: gile plak
Kerry: y?
Kerry: dc ke?
lissa mohamed: tak la die hang
Kerry: oh
Kerry: webcam tu kot
Kerry: dah la lappie panas
Kerry: nnt kau pakai lappie aku la
Kerry: bg aku lappie kau,aku tuka fan dlm tu
Kerry: babe?
Kerry: hang lg?
lissa mohamed: tak
lissa mohamed: ok jer
lissa mohamed: erm
lissa mohamed: ok
Kerry: kau ok tak?
lissa mohamed: ok jerk
Kerry: oo ok ok
Kerry: aku da chill sket
Kerry: thanks
Kerry:
lissa mohamed: nak bace blog
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: alaaa
Kerry: jap
lissa mohamed: nape
Kerry: ptg smlm til skang blom update
Kerry: tatau patut masuk ke tak
Kerry: http://fromme2her.blogspot.com/
Kerry: there
BUZZ!!!
lissa mohamed: k
lissa mohamed: jap
Kerry: babe
Kerry: status fb kau tu shows that u dont like me loving u
lissa mohamed: arituh aku serabot la
Kerry: ok
lissa mohamed: aku type mase bile ekh
Kerry: sorry
Kerry: masa aku ckp tu la
Kerry: masa aku confessed
lissa mohamed: mase aku bgn subuh b4 chautut tu kot
Kerry: yeap
Kerry: kau tgh baca ke ape ?
lissa mohamed: aah
lissa mohamed: hehhe
Kerry: oowh
Kerry: ok
lissa mohamed: tak pe kler
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: go ahead
Kerry: u know im crazy for u
Kerry: dah?
lissa mohamed: blom ag
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: aiyak
Kerry: oh fuck
Kerry: ade lyric laguu
Kerry: aku lupaaa
Kerry: wehhh
Kerry: hahahahahaahha
lissa mohamed: jgn
Kerry: aku nak delete tu
Kerry: ahahahahhahahaha
Kerry: weh
lissa mohamed: tak ya la
Kerry: jiwang sgt weh
Kerry: hahahaha
Kerry: hmm
Kerry: kaunaklagu tu?
Kerry: ?
BUZZ!!!
Kerry: aiyo
Kerry: babe?
BUZZ!!!
lissa mohamed: yup
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: err
Kerry: kau
Kerry: ok?
Kerry: kau still baca?
Kerry: alaaaa
Kerry: weh
Kerry: aku kat sini
Kerry: tu kata2 yg lepas je
Kerry: hmm
lissa mohamed: hehe
lissa mohamed: aku ade
Kerry: malu la weh
Kerry: adoi
lissa mohamed: da abes bace da syg
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: eleh
lissa mohamed: ape
lissa mohamed: weks
Kerry: u didnt mean it kan?
Kerry: kan?
Kerry: tau dah
lissa mohamed: i didnt say nthing
lissa mohamed: weks
Kerry: slow la lagu tu
Kerry: esok la aku kasi
lissa mohamed: okay
Kerry: yea mmg kau tak ckp pon
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lissa mohamed: ape
Kerry: but u shud listen to it
lissa mohamed: tak paham
Kerry: aku jumpa lagu ni,mcm ngam plak dgn aku
Kerry: ape aku rasa seme
Kerry: ewah
Kerry: jiwanngggg
lissa mohamed: ape ko merepek nie
Kerry: fuckkkk
lissa mohamed: owh
lissa mohamed: ok
lissa mohamed: hehe
lissa mohamed: tadi tak paham ko ckp ape
Kerry: tade ape la
Kerry:
Kerry: just smile
Kerry:
Kerry: tgk gamba avatar ym aku
Kerry: gamba stone
Kerry: hahaha
Kerry: eh kau nak gamba kau?
BUZZ!!!
lissa mohamed has accepted your invitation to start photo sharing.

lissa mohamed: owh
lissa mohamed: ok jek
Kerry: ala,kau ni napa
Kerry: slow je
lissa mohamed: tak la ok jek
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: somthing i wrote in the blog?
Kerry: u dont like ek
lissa mohamed: tadi yg ko sharing ptg tadi pon tak dapat
lissa mohamed: tak clear
Kerry: ni laa
Kerry: ha tunggu dia clear
lissa mohamed: nope
Kerry: then save la
lissa mohamed: ok jer
lissa mohamed: la
lissa mohamed: ape la
Kerry:
lissa mohamed: tak clear
Kerry: lek lek
lissa mohamed: jap
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: dia load tu
Kerry: sabar girl
lissa mohamed: hehe ok
Kerry: clear da?
lissa mohamed: nie gamba mate mtv nie
Kerry: oyeh
Kerry: hahaha
Kerry: kau ingat la sebab make up kau
Kerry: hahaha
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: ade lagi
Kerry: tp besa
Kerry: nnt la aku resize
lissa mohamed: later la bg kay
Kerry: ok
Kerry: kau nak quit ke?
lissa mohamed: tak la
Kerry: ok ok
Kerry: kau nape? tetibe mcm diam je ni
Kerry: aiyaa
lissa mohamed: gamba tgn ayam je tak clear
Kerry: haha lek
lissa mohamed: eh jap aku nak p dapo
Kerry: dia still upload kot
Kerry: eh kau nak makan kan ?
Kerry: pegi la
Kerry: aku tunggu
Kerry: aku da malas nak gerak da
Kerry: syok layan kau
Kerry: hahaha
Kerry: kau makan ke ape?
lissa mohamed: im back
lissa mohamed: tak mkn
lissa mohamed: lauk abes
Kerry: apsal?
lissa mohamed: tapi tape
Kerry: alaaaaaaaaaa
Kerry: sorrryyyyy
Kerry: alaaaa
lissa mohamed: tadi aku mkn bnyak nak mampos
Kerry: wehh
Kerry: tape ke?
Kerry: kau ta lapa ke?
Kerry: td kau cakap nak makan
lissa mohamed: tak langsung
Kerry: pastu aku sebok msg
Kerry: alaaa
Kerry: wehh
lissa mohamed: aku g check je
Kerry: aiyoooo
lissa mohamed: kalu ade aku makan la
Kerry: isk
Kerry: weh sian kau
lissa mohamed: kalu tade aku tk mkn
Kerry: lapa
Kerry: tade ape ke?
Kerry: buat air weh
Kerry: alaaa
lissa mohamed: ade daging seketul kot
Kerry: kau kate nak kua ngan ijat kan
lissa mohamed: haha
Kerry: g la makan
lissa mohamed: biarla
Kerry: adoi
Kerry: babe
lissa mohamed: ntah mane ntah die
lissa mohamed: tak msg pon
lissa mohamed: bia la
Kerry: sure ke weh
Kerry: tak lapa ke?
lissa mohamed: sure
Kerry: hmm ok
Kerry: aiseh
Kerry: ish
Kerry: anyway shud i change the url of the blog ?
lissa mohamed: gambar nie perut aku besa kan
lissa mohamed: hehe
lissa mohamed: skirt siap ketat gile
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: pusat kau comel
lissa mohamed: skunk tak lagi
Kerry: tak bulat
Kerry: penyek
Kerry: hahahaha
lissa mohamed: pusat ko pon penyek
lissa mohamed: sebab banyak lemak
Kerry: aku mmg stended dah
Kerry: dari kedai lagi
Kerry: hehehe
lissa mohamed has closed photo sharing.

lissa mohamed: kedai..?
lissa mohamed: huh
Kerry: ala
Kerry: ayat je
Kerry: standard kedai
Kerry: default la
Kerry: aiya
Kerry: hahaha
lissa mohamed: owh
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry:
lissa mohamed: tadi ko ade gune,aku lupe
lissa mohamed: ko wat pe
Kerry: ngadap ym kau la
Kerry: haha
lissa mohamed: mak ko mane
Kerry: ntah
Kerry: malas care
Kerry: hehahaha
lissa mohamed: weh,aku siap malu ngan ko
Kerry: apsal plak?
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: aku laa yg patut malu
Kerry: gilo
Kerry: ske sebok nak malu la,nak sentap la
Kerry: hahahaha
Kerry: jap,apsal kau nak malu?
Kerry: alu?
Kerry: weh
lissa mohamed: arituh aku teckp kat ko pasal ian suh aku tgk tutt.. pastuh aku ckp kat ko.. pastue aku tgk lagi.. aku siap melayan.. aku layan je tgk,sebab tak tau nak wat pe. pastu ko tau,malu gak la. tapi aku kesa plak. sebab b4 dis pon aku tak pna tgk sorg. so,amks
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: aku ok je
Kerry: thats u
Kerry:
lissa mohamed: not me
lissa mohamed: aku tgk plak blue
Kerry: no maksud aku
Kerry: wat u did,make u today
Kerry:
Kerry: i dont care,as long as u r u
lissa mohamed: bodoh la ko..
lissa mohamed: ye la
Kerry: hahaha
lissa mohamed: arituh ya call aku
Kerry: aha ahaaa
Kerry: apsal
lissa mohamed: die cakap die mcm suke balik kat apit
Kerry: whos apit?
Kerry: hahahaha
Kerry: siap tak tau
Kerry: hahaha
lissa mohamed: aku pon tak paham die stoned ngan apit
lissa mohamed: ex die la
Kerry: oo
Kerry: wahh stoned ngan apit seh
Kerry: hahaha
lissa mohamed: tau tape
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: ayat gua
Kerry: hahahaha
Kerry: lu bikin gua kembang neh
lissa mohamed: ape
lissa mohamed: tak paham
Kerry: abaikan
Kerry: weh
Kerry: tuka la stats fb tu
lissa mohamed: ape ko ckp
lissa mohamed: iskh
Kerry: aku rasa mcm kau tak suke aku gini plak
lissa mohamed: ye la aku tuka kay..
Kerry: yeay!
lissa mohamed: thanks for loving me..
lissa mohamed: awwwwwww
lissa mohamed: haha
Kerry: babe
Kerry: dont say it to me
lissa mohamed: say what
Kerry: i shud be the one shud thank u for being u
Kerry: and i thank god for making u what u are and where r are today
Kerry: ohh
Kerry: kau nak letak status ke
Kerry: fuckk
Kerry: prasann lagiii
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
lissa mohamed: weks
Kerry: silent mode
Kerry: on
Kerry: siau la
Kerry: adoi
Kerry: haa
Kerry: aku jadi mcm tu la
Kerry: prasan lebih
Kerry: adoiyai
lissa mohamed: ape
lissa mohamed: lek la en kelly
Kerry: lek ape lek
Kerry: mau lilek mcm mana ma
lissa mohamed: is missing and loving by the speechless.
Kerry: ini kasi saya manyak malu munya
Kerry: hahahahaha
Kerry:
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: this is mine plak " now, there are only three words and no question at all. "
Kerry: siau laa
Kerry: aahahahahaha
Kerry: aku nak g terbang jap
Kerry: jaajajajaajaj
Kerry: eh
Kerry: hahahahahahahaahaha
lissa mohamed: da bace da
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: dem laju
Kerry: oi
Kerry: ape bikin
Kerry: alamalu seh
Kerry: oi hanjeng
Kerry: haha
Kerry: sorrysorry
Kerry: hahahaha
Kerry: weh
Kerry: oi
lissa mohamed: heh
lissa mohamed: lek la
lissa mohamed: aala
Kerry: hahaha
Kerry: budus
lissa mohamed: kecha
Kerry: kecha ape
Kerry: kecah la
Kerry: eja salah,nak suh org lek plak
Kerry: hahahaha
Kerry: err
Kerry: url blog tu aku perlu tuka ke tak
Kerry: or kau nak baca lagi kang ?
Kerry: alu?
lissa mohamed: aku tak bace pon lagi
Kerry: oo ok
Kerry: aik
Kerry: tadi tu ?
lissa mohamed: aku bace bile ko update je la
lissa mohamed: mane mak aku nie
lissa mohamed: busan seh
Kerry: oo ok
lissa mohamed: aku nak tdo
Kerry: mak kau p mana ?
Kerry: kau tdo la
lissa mohamed: busan surang kat uma
Kerry: ohh teman ek?
lissa mohamed: aku takot sikit
Kerry: alalalala
Kerry: esok aku teman kau k babe?
Kerry: wokie ?
Kerry:
lissa mohamed: nie ko teman aku la nie
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: i mean esok kat gurney la sheiton
Kerry: hahaha
lissa mohamed: owh
lissa mohamed: hehe
lissa mohamed: ok
Kerry: okeng
Kerry: kalau kau ok la
Kerry: kalau tak ok,aku duk umah je la
Kerry: dan mengharap kau suh dtg
Kerry: hahahaahaha
Kerry: ahh kemak laa
Kerry: ego kerry ego
Kerry: hnsss hnssss hnssss
lissa mohamed: aku nak ko dtg gile
Kerry: hahah okeng
Kerry:
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: gile la weh
lissa mohamed: ape
Kerry: ni rasa best yg gila
Kerry: hahahaha
Kerry: dulu aku fall in love time kecik sgt
Kerry: so aku tak rasa mcm ni
Kerry: dulu bodo,naive
Kerry: hahaha
Kerry: skang lain
Kerry: gilo gilo gilo
lissa mohamed: abes si minah tuh
lissa mohamed: tak fallen ker
Kerry: minah mana?
Kerry: tak mcm ni
Kerry: dia aku tak rasa sgt
Kerry: sebab aku mcm ego
lissa mohamed: yg pompuan tuh la
Kerry: aku kerek
Kerry: ex tu clake tu ke?
lissa mohamed: ala mane aku tau name die
lissa mohamed: aku tau intan jek
Kerry: ha aku kerek time tu
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: ego
Kerry: siap blagak
lissa mohamed: jgn ckp cmtuh
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: pastu layan dia,last2 aku yg down
Kerry: kemak
Kerry: tp skang aku nak let go semua
Kerry: mampos la
Kerry: hahahaha
Kerry: i just dont care
lissa mohamed: hehe
lissa mohamed: ko tau tak
lissa mohamed: erm..
Kerry: apo
Kerry: apo jang ?
Kerry: haha
lissa mohamed: ijat pon ckp aku nie bnyak pk padahal aku tak pna b tau die yg aku suke bepk
lissa mohamed: die ckp sebab tuh aku tade bf
Kerry: yeap
lissa mohamed: pastuh die ckp aku selalu jiwa kacau
lissa mohamed: adeh
Kerry: hmm
lissa mohamed: aku tak cter kat die sgt
lissa mohamed: sebab aku tau die suke aku
lissa mohamed: camtuh la
Kerry: so ape point kau bgtau aku ni?
lissa mohamed: hehe
lissa mohamed: ala
lissa mohamed: jgn sentap kay
Kerry: tak la
lissa mohamed: aku rase cam da ramai je tau aku bnyak pk
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: tp mende dia cakap tu aku tau
Kerry: tu la
Kerry: kau jiwa kacau pun sapa tatau
Kerry: tp tu suma aku tak peduli seh
lissa mohamed: aku nak borak ngan ko ape die g tau aku
Kerry: kau byk pk ke,kacau ke
Kerry: kau kacau air milo ke
Kerry: aku
Kerry: suka
Kerry: kau
Kerry: sheiton
Kerry: hahahaha
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: ha ok ok
Kerry: go ahead babe
Kerry:
lissa mohamed: nanti ko sentap
lissa mohamed: aku nak ckp nape aku rase teharu kat korang
Kerry: ok
lissa mohamed: aku bukan compare
Kerry: tape,aku tahan k
Kerry: no worries
lissa mohamed: aku just rase cam teharu la
lissa mohamed: cam tak sangke ade gak lelaKI YG SETIA
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: am i?
lissa mohamed: ala
Kerry: hahaha
lissa mohamed: tahan..?
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: ala tape
Kerry: lagipun ijat tu kenal kau dulu kot
Kerry: who am i to question him kan?
Kerry: tp dia setia ke?
Kerry: dia ade gf kot
Kerry: hahaha
Kerry: mari kita downkan dia
Kerry: hahahaha
Kerry: jahat seh
Kerry: tak tak
lissa mohamed: aku tak bace pon lagi
Kerry: aku tarik blk
lissa mohamed: jap
Kerry: baceape mende??
lissa mohamed: sala
lissa mohamed: jap
Kerry: aik
lissa mohamed: aku tetekan atas bwh nie
Kerry: hahaha ngoks
lissa mohamed: pastue hilang ape aku type tadi
Kerry: ok ok
lissa mohamed: iskh
lissa mohamed: jap
Kerry: go on go on
Kerry: go on go on
Kerry: eh
Kerry: sama la
Kerry: dah tekan,taleh delete
Kerry: kemak
lissa mohamed: die confess ngan aku die suke aku time form 4 n sampai skunk.mase kat sikolah die kate aku mcm lembab sebab tak nampak hint yg die bg. aku tak pna tau yg certain membe aku da tau pasal ijat suke aku. aku tak pna tau pasal nie. pastue aku lost contact ngan die pas spm,setahun pastue aku jumpe balik, die ckp die frust menonggeng sebab tak dapat cari aku. die siap bayangkan kalu aku couple ngan die dari sekolah sampai skunk,and die ckp die mmg tepk nak kawen ngan aku. ngan gf die sku nk nie pon die tak rase ape yg die arse kat aku.
Kerry: ok
lissa mohamed: bile mak die ckp pasal kawen,sampai skunk die akn cakap org tuh stay air limau
lissa mohamed: tue aku
Kerry: ok
lissa mohamed: kadang2 die ckp" kalu die ckp die nak org,skunk gak org break ngan nini"
lissa mohamed: die ngan nini da 5 tahun
Kerry: ok
lissa mohamed: nie 1st time die citer detail kat aku
lissa mohamed: pastue lepas tuh die malu..
lissa mohamed: n cakap abaikan
lissa mohamed: cam tuh '
lissa mohamed: la
lissa mohamed: so,aku teharu la
lissa mohamed: aku cam tak sangke la
lissa mohamed: die ckp die ade aku n awek die jer
lissa mohamed: cousin die sume tau pasal aku
lissa mohamed: so aku pon tak tau nak ckp ape
lissa mohamed: sebab aku takde feeling ngan die
lissa mohamed: dulu ade la
lissa mohamed: tapi lepas tuh aku da tak rase pape sampai skunk
lissa mohamed: same gak cam ian, die ckp die tgu aku da 3tahun,tapi sebab perangai die camtuh,aku terase bnyak la..
lissa mohamed: tue je
lissa mohamed: aku just nak b tau yg aku teharu
lissa mohamed: nanti ko ckp aku compare
lissa mohamed: padahal tak pon
Kerry: bt still,aku tatau nak cakap ape
Kerry: maybe aku kenal kau kejap
Kerry: maybe aku ade gf utk aku dump demi kau
Kerry: maybe mak aku tak tanya aku pasal sapa aku nak kawin
Kerry: maybe aku blom tunggu kau 3 tahun
lissa mohamed: ijat tue still hoping sampau=i skunk padahal die tau jawapan die no.!!!
Kerry: sebab kau kasi hope
Kerry: kau still contact
Kerry: which is a hope
Kerry: if he loves u,dia tak patut ade gf
Kerry: hes lying to her
Kerry: to himself
Kerry: aku cakap sebab aku tau dia pesaing aku
Kerry: yes,hes winning
Kerry: aku tak skola sama kau
Kerry: aku tade gf nak aku dump demi kau
Kerry: i got nothing babe
lissa mohamed: ape ko ckp nie
Kerry: i got,only my feelings
lissa mohamed: ko yg compare
lissa mohamed: aku tak compare pon
Kerry: kau tak compare
Kerry: tapi kau collect
lissa mohamed: aku just nak ckp yg korang wat aku rase yg aku ckp tue la
Kerry: if u dont have feelings for him,jgn buat dia gitu
Kerry: make him to move on
lissa mohamed: aku buat ape
Kerry: kau nak sampai matidia gitu
Kerry: kau takde rasa bersalah ke ?
lissa mohamed: aku tak wat ape
Kerry: kau bekawan,giving him hope
lissa mohamed: aku tak
lissa mohamed: aku siap cter pasal ex aku sume kat die
Kerry: yes
lissa mohamed: aku ngady=u kat die
lissa mohamed: sebab die mmg bestfren aku
Kerry: sama mcm kau buat kat aku kan ?
Kerry: or tak
Kerry: anyway
Kerry: tape,aku tak sentap
lissa mohamed: sebab korg sume b.fren aku at the 1st place
lissa mohamed: faham tak
Kerry: aku respect ape kau pk
Kerry: aku taleh marah
Kerry: its ur decision
Kerry: maybe,aku next dlm que utk jadi mcm dia
Kerry: who knows
Kerry: thats y kau taleh kasi jawapan
Kerry: ok ok
Kerry: go on
BUZZ!!!
Kerry: ha go on la
BUZZ!!!
BUZZ!!!
BUZZ!!!
Kerry: oiii
Kerry: adoi
lissa mohamed: hai nie uddin
Kerry: cu?
Kerry: cu mana?
lissa mohamed: cu kt dpr
Kerry: loh
Kerry: wat pe ?
lissa mohamed: ngah wat keje
Kerry: kejeape plak dah?
Kerry: alaaa
Kerry: hmm
lissa mohamed: kemas dpr
Kerry: aik
Kerry: tetiba je ?
lissa mohamed: ni syazwan
BUZZ!!!
lissa mohamed: lala
lissa mohamed: sorry
lissa mohamed: aku kat dapo tado
Kerry: ok ok
lissa mohamed: tadi
lissa mohamed: mak aku balik
Kerry: oo okeng
Kerry: ha go on la
BUZZ!!!
lissa mohamed: ala
Kerry: loh
lissa mohamed: aku tak tau nak ckp ape
lissa mohamed: tue je la
Kerry: so dia tau la aku syg kau?
lissa mohamed: erm.
Kerry: hmm
lissa mohamed: tak
Kerry: y?
Kerry: not yet
Kerry: >
Kerry: ?
lissa mohamed: die tau
lissa mohamed: aku still anggap die best frena ku
lissa mohamed: ko jgn mara kay
Kerry: oh
Kerry: ok
Kerry: aku takde hak nak marah
Kerry: sebab tu kau hide smlm
Kerry: sebab aku bukan lagi bestfriend kau
lissa mohamed: hmm..
Kerry: if not,surely kau cakap je
lissa mohamed: ko bukan bestfren aki
Kerry: ok
lissa mohamed: ..?
lissa mohamed: nape lak
Kerry: got it
lissa mohamed: erm,
Kerry: he knows,i dont..simple
Kerry:
Kerry: tape la weh
lissa mohamed: takkan aku nak ckp kat ko camnie.. kerry,ko tau tak ade membe aku suke aku name die kerry. ko tau kan die tue sape. die tuh ko la
lissa mohamed: hehe
lissa mohamed: ape ko ckp nie
lissa mohamed: iskh
Kerry: no
Kerry: maksud aku
lissa mohamed: ade certain thing yg die tak tau and ko tau
Kerry: pasal smlm,kau jumpa dia,kau hide,meaning kau taleh cite kat aku,sebab aku bukan bestfriend kau la
Kerry: well
Kerry: he is winning anyway
lissa mohamed: takkan aku nak cter kat ko pasal ko
lissa mohamed: ape la
lissa mohamed: ape ko nie
lissa mohamed: aduss
Kerry: aku tak sentap
Kerry: tapi aku mcm faham ape yg kacau kau
lissa mohamed: malas la nak ckp lagi ko je suke pk at diff side
Kerry: tak tak
lissa mohamed: ape yg kaco aku
Kerry:
Kerry: aku chill la
Kerry: aku moody pon
Kerry: bukan jadi ape
Kerry: wont change anything
Kerry: tul tak
lissa mohamed: ko nie ckp ape
Kerry: takde ape la
lissa mohamed: mals la camnie
Kerry: loh
Kerry: aku ok la
Kerry: kau tu knape
lissa mohamed: dari tadi lagi aku ckp ko jadi camnie
lissa mohamed: dari ptg tadi
Kerry: camni apo?
Kerry: loh
Kerry: aku ok la sheiton
lissa mohamed: eleh
Kerry: laa
Kerry: ape mende
lissa mohamed: ye la
lissa mohamed: thats it yg aku nak ckp
lissa mohamed: ok
Kerry: okeng
lissa mohamed: so kenape lak ko ckp die menang
Kerry: hmm
Kerry: aku malas la cakap
lissa mohamed: sebab aku cter kat die pasal ko
Kerry: nnt aku sentap
Kerry: who cares
lissa mohamed: aku tak cter pasal ko kat ko
Kerry: thats y aku malas cakap
lissa mohamed: ape
lissa mohamed: ckp la
Kerry: nah,tape la
lissa mohamed: ape
lissa mohamed: benci la
lissa mohamed: ckp je
lissa mohamed: pls
Kerry: tanak la
Kerry: wat pe cakap
Kerry: kau share sama dia
Kerry: whats the point anyway
lissa mohamed: bukan sume bende la
lissa mohamed: tgk ko jadi camnie
Kerry: tp yg ni,mesti dia akan tau gak
Kerry: loh
Kerry: dah tu
lissa mohamed: akju just ckp ko suke aku
lissa mohamed: tue jek
lissa mohamed: ape
Kerry: tamau la weh
lissa mohamed: yg mane
lissa mohamed: da la kop
Kerry: cukup la dulu aku da cakap pasal feeling aku
lissa mohamed: nyesal lak aku ckp
Kerry: tayah nyesal
Kerry: aku dah agak dah pon
Kerry: dulu kau da cite kan
Kerry: )
Kerry: eh
Kerry:
Kerry: lek lek sudah
lissa mohamed: ape yg ko nak ckp tadi
Kerry: bilo plak aku nak cakap ?
Kerry: hahaha
Kerry: tade ape la
lissa mohamed: asal ko ckp die mng lak
Kerry: aku cuma baru tau kau share cite ni dgn dia
Kerry: so aku rasa cukup la kot
lissa mohamed: benci la ko
lissa mohamed: erm..
lissa mohamed: tak pe la weh
lissa mohamed: aku tak share ape
Kerry: ape aku rasa,utk kau
Kerry: kau nak tau ape aku nak cakap ?
lissa mohamed: aku just ckpa " ade membe org suke org" die tanye sape. then aku ckp kerry. pasue die ckp " pwh'kerry khalid tue eh" tue jek
lissa mohamed: aduss
Kerry: okie
lissa mohamed: da la weh..
lissa mohamed: aku nak out
Kerry: jap la
lissa mohamed: ko camnie
lissa mohamed: bye
lissa mohamed: nite
Kerry: aku tgh taip la
Kerry: seton
Kerry: woi
lissa mohamed: ape
Kerry: panjang ni
Kerry: budus
lissa mohamed: humm
Kerry: tmpa nak
Kerry: hahaha
Kerry: lek lek
Kerry: aku ok la babe
Kerry:
Kerry: sat aku taip
Kerry: kau ni
Kerry: glojoh
lissa mohamed: cepat la
lissa mohamed: aku nak out da nie
Kerry: g ane ?
lissa mohamed: aku da ngantok
Kerry: jap aaaa
Kerry: alaa
Kerry: kau ni
lissa mohamed: aku nak tdo
lissa mohamed: ye la
Last message received on 11/28 at 11:41 PM
Kerry: ok.ni bahagian aku,utk kau. maybe aku kenal kau kejap je. maybe aku, takde gf,utk aku tinggalkan demi kau mcm ijat. maybe mak aku tak tanya aku pasal sapa aku nak kawin. maybe aku tak sebut pasal kawin lagi dgn kau. maybe aku belum tunggu 3 tahun utk kau. maybe aku belum tunggu sampai bila2 utk kau...tapi ape aku tau,i wud die for u. i dont care how they feel bout u. i respect their feelings for u.. but..if he really loves u,hed stayed single in the 1st place,and not cheating and lying to his gf bout his feelings,thats quite unfair.maybe aku cakap ni bias,sebab aku sayang juga kau. tp kau pk blk la.aku tanak menang dlm mende2 ni.maybe diorg kenal kau lebih,aku kenal kau sikit sebab aku baru lg kenal kau. but somehow,im pretty sure and confident, mine is way better than them.
Kerry: i dont care his going to dump anybody in this world for u. if he can do that, theres a chance he can do that again.aku tanak cakap ape ape.that wud be bias.no wonder dulu kau cite pasal dia,aku ade rasa mcm kau protect dia sebab aku bahan dia. but i dont freakin care. i love u,i want u. i dont care if theres a million guys in front of me going for u. im standing back in the line, just waiting for u,to see,how much u mean to me. maybe there r thousand of men who r WAYYYYY better than me... but the question is, can they love u like i do? even tho i asked u is there hope in here,even if u said no at that time skali pun, i just dont care,oh yea i`ll wait,by myself. i just cant imagine that i will be asking myself at that time, kenape la kau jadi macm ni kerry? thats all.
Kerry: i love u,and i dont care bout them.
Kerry: there ..

and afterwards we texted each other.hmm.things went well after that.im starting to enjoy telling her how i feel for her. and im starting to love whenever she read this. maybe this is how i express everything in words. but no worries my dear, words are nothing,i`ll prove it to u. thats a promise. :) anyway im sleepy now,and im happy. i dont know whether i can sleep or not. but i`ll try. i`ll be seeing her tomorrow. wee :)

P/S:its been a helluva day,had an arguement with my mum and my sis..and oh yea,the 'hal' with her also. but then,to sum up,im happy...coz of her. she changed everything,in me and out of me.

slices of joy

i heart u babe. :)

the Eid

12.12pm - home (kuantan)

yeap,its Hari Raya Haji or in another term, Aidiladha. hm,its kinda boring juga,coz this year aku tak celebrate pun. aku berdua dgn my mum. akak aku semua di jb,with all my relatives seme. aiyak. ini ialah bosan okeh. woke up at 8am,mak aku gegar bilik aku. haha, agak annoying but then rindu juga la gegaran si ibu ni. haha. dia tutup main switch for electric,so that aku tido dlm keadaan panas. pandai dan bijak. haha. so bangun,mandi mandi, baju melayu disarung, naik kete, lalu depan masjid,pegi umah adi, tunggu adi (walaupun aku tak call pun dia cakap aku nak dtg sebab hp aku mmg takde bateri langsung) and wished that adi kuar umah. hahaha. then disebabkan kesabaran aku yg hebat menunggu adi selama 40minutes, adi kua umah dgn tak berbaju,berseluar pendek,bermuka baru bangun tido. yes! haha. adi ni dia gila hp. aku bleh confirm,atleast skarang dia pakai N97 or iPhone or Blackberry yg latest. so aku rasa dia mmg ada charger utk E71 aku di waktu 9am ni. haha. anyway,aku panggil,then aku tanya la ade ke tak. dia cakap takde. damnnnnn! dia pakai N97,and the charger is different. terbaek. officially i hate Nokia. tp, dia ade car charger je. so aku pun sebat je la charger tu.

aku menggelupur sebab subuh tadi i texted her. cant sleep,i mean i did sleep,then mcm susah la. pusing sana pusing sini,tak ngam je rasa. damn betul. anyway,aku duk dlm kete,charge phone,on,dpt msg from her. yeay! berjaya! aahahaha. so aku round satu bandar kuantan,just to charge my phone.sambil tu aku texting dgn dia la. ah normal conversation on pagi Raya la. :D :) then aku balik,santap cake choc layer mak aku order.then lepak layan kucing,tgk tiwi. urgh. sama mcm aku lepas skola dulu seh. bosan dan bosan. then layan borak dgn mak aku pasal keje dia. dari pagi aku still duk sms dgn dia. yea, she really make my day. waiting for her to reply is one of the best feeling. tp kalau lama sgt,rasa mcm "erhh.mana nihhh??" hahahaharam jadah.

anyway,lepas sms sms tu, batt flat. aiyak. so aku kuar lagi,round lagi town. hahaha charge bitch charge! cepat!! hahaha. then aku ternampak satu kedai phone bukak.yes! aku cargas, beli satu charger. thank God! puas ati aku. jahanam nye Nokia,Petronas dan Hari Raya. hahahaha. aku dah kalahkan korang semua. padan muka, aku dpt charger,aku menang! hahahahaha.

hmm,she said that shes going back to Rasa (her sister's) on Sunday coz Uddin will be 'sunat'(if i said circumcise,korang tau faham ke? haha)on 5th dec, so dia kene prepare goodie bags and such la. but this time,dia ajak aku dtg. whoa!!! seriously, dulu time akak dia buat open house, dia ade cakap yg dia segan nak ajak. tp kali ni dia ajak jugak. haha. surely aku dtg la weh. tadahal la Rasa tu,bukan Perlis ke Siam ke. hahahaha. budusss. so skang aku lepak umah je. nasib baik dia remind aku suh pegi sembahyang Jumaat. hahaha. siau.

dah,arini bz sikit. malam plak k. :)

the bliss

10.43am - home - missing her - sleepy as hell

its a new day today,somehow i feel fine,happy and flying. no no,its not what u guys think la. its still KIV,but then its a good sign,as i think lah. anyway,shes at her sister's and going back to melaka afterwards. hmm. i received a blank sms from her at 2.57am. she was sleeping maybe,tertekan kot. haha. anyway pagi tadi i texted her goodmorning.my sister called,dropping my car coz shes going back with my other sister. nice,driving,alone..which is so boring. oh yea, she replied my msg,then normal early morning conversation begins.. :) :) :) im packing my stuffs and the moment. tak byk pun,sumbat sikit sikit sudah.got mine left back in kuantan,so tayah bawa byk sgt. anyway, in the conversation tu, she asked me to diet. haha. aku gemuk sgt la nih. hahaha. ok ok,from now on, im gonna buff up my muscle and diet. haha. maybe itu dia nak kot? ah who cares, if its for her,tadahal la weh. hahaha. dah dah,packing,going for breakfast,i mean a light breakfast la. dia suh diet kot. haha.

12.32pm - home

ok its time, mari balik kampung. yea im excited, ya know, balik,jumpa family, friends seme. tp this time aku drive sorang. aiseh. bosan la. so gerak. received her sms, she just reached her sweet home back in melaka. ok thats relieving. anyway dia complain, panas. aircond rosak and such. ahaha. sian plak. dari dulu dia selalu complain bout how hot is melaka. aiyo. kalau boleh,aku pasang kipas besar kat atas negeri melaka utk dia. :D :D so aku drive,alone, listening to my playlist that i made before i jumped in the car. at first jalan mcm ok,but then right after 1st toll... hmm,as i thought, berjuta manusia nak balik kampung ke pantai timur. WTF weh! lek lek la. dah la skarang baru 1.20pm, pehal nak ramai plak nih, aku da la lapa,dahaga dan bosan. mmg menguji kesabaran amat. ahaha. anyway i was sms-ing with her, thank God dia ada layan sms. agak cool sikit la kan. aku duk sengih je memanjang, ahaha. maybe thats the good part of being with her, she make me cold when im hot.her sweetness isnt it? huhu. so i drove off thru karak yg beribu kereta, slow-moving, then after 2nd toll, jalan agak clear, i stepped on the pedal. reached temerloh in 40mins. whoa! ahaha.

so im gonna skipped my driving period. sampai je kuantan,singgah my mum's office to pick up some stuffs and house key. my mum with her friends pegi mana ntah. so aku balik, lepak and rehat. then boredom melanda. got nothing to watch on astro, the sound of cats' "meow" pun jadi menyampah. haha. did call my friends to lepak at kopitiam. but then, semua takde. simon blk muar, eki bz with gf so as hafiz. mirul was working, aiman n mat are in shah alam (putoh pak korang la,cakap nak lepak ktn) and lelain tu aku malas call. aku dah start nyampah. bosan bosan bosan. tatau apsal,but this time rasa bosan yg hebat. normally tade la bosan mcm ni.i guess maybe aku dah biasa lepak with her. i mean, bosan seh semua mende. so di atas sebab bosan, aku melepak rumah,baca surat2 yg aku blom baca. then i texted her "im hungry, sleepy,boring and missing you"... :) then she replied "Hehehe.. Asal xmkn ag? G la mkn n pas2 tdo." ...i replied, then she went "Wiwit diet seh.. Hehe.. ala tdo je la. xgemuk pun. ape la. Ko rindu aku ekh. Hehe. Ko wat ak rase laen." oh my..is that a good sign? dia rasa lain? or am i just perasan sorang2 ? ahahaha. anyway aku reply lagi, then dia cakap "Sikitnye mkn. mkn la lg. sikit sgt 2.nanti saket perot gle. Ak siap rase laen dow. Da la ckp ngan ko,aku kau.Pas2 ko ckp rindu2 plak" hahahahaha. but does it matter what call-name we use? i dont care. u can call me babi,i miss u,i dont care. hahaha. maybe its awkward for her. but i wanna be true to her.this is me. but if she finds it weird, im gonna change it la. as long as shes comfortable with it. anyway, aku reply lagi...then "ehehe budus.. tp aku xbiase la gle. Da la ckp ko aku,pas2 ckp rindu plak. Laen mcm bunyi dia..budus,budus,budus" - next msg , the best msg of the day "Ahaha.. B0ngoks. Btw,thanks. N u knw what,i think i miss u t0o. Ak nk mkn. Text u later. xyah sengih lelama. malu org nampak" Wahaahahahahahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. ok im smiling until now, right at this moment. ahahahahaha. im suprise and i dont know what to say. good god i miss and i love u girl. urghhh! hahahah. BRB.

9.17pm

mak aku call,suruh dtg hyatt,ade org nak jumpa. adui,malas betol aku. aku runner sana,jumpa la partner mak aku ni yg beriya sangat nak masuk tender kat office aku. aku tatau ape masalah dia ni, sampai cari aku, padahal masuk je la kan. macam susah sgt. apa da. anyway, aku rindu dia. yes, like hell. its been years aku tak rindu org macam ni. last time aku rindu intan..now shes gone,so move on to the next phase in life lah.now,its her. :) anyway im going back now. malas aku nak layan pakcik ni lelame. poyo bleh tahan. aku tak suke lepak dgn org mcm ni. bisnes 24 7. come on,live life la.keje keje juga. dah abis keje,chill la kan. apa da.

10.48pm - home (kuantan)

ok,bosan aku dah tahap nak mati. seriously. so aku call her. no answer.probably dia bz sebab esok raya kot. im just missing her. atleast nak dgr her voice dah cukup. then she called back. hahahahaha. suka,saya suka.hahaha. kemak. anyway aku rasa mcm nak top up phone dia so that dia bleh online. but she dont want to.ok,as u wish my dear. :) so aku call apis, dia bz sikit,but then bila setel nnt dia call. aku lepak dlm bilik,ngadap lappie. then mirul call, ajak lepak. hahaha at last! kuar jugak. jahanam bosan. lain2 semua bz. adoi. so aku pegi pick up mirul yg agak lembab, dekat half an hour tunggu. anyway, dari tadi aku duk sms dia. hehe. well, atleast she keeps me away from boredom teritory. plus,i miss her as hell.

anyway, pick up mirul,straight to coffeestreet. agak ramai manusia, yg mana semua aku kenal. letih juga nak tegur semua org. lagipun semua tanya soalan sama "mana keje skang? kawin blom? masyuk la?" bosan aku nak jawab. so go away people. haha.lepak dgn mirul, texting her. hee hee.i wished her slamat hari raya, and i told her that i love her. is it too early? im not sure,but she already knew it kan? dia da masuk sini kan? so what the hell,im gonna set it straight this time. then dia reply la mcm bahan aku. hahaha siau btol. but i dont care. this is what i feel for her. lantak la aku ni jiwang jahanam ke hawau tahap bangau ke. hahaha. mams sama korang la. hahaha. pastu si mirul sibuk cite pasal amcash investment ape lancau ntah,aku tak fokus langsung. hahaha. sorry la bro. sapa suh present time aku bz sms ni? harapan...hahaha.

then i asked her napa dia nak baca blog ni sgt? dia cakap dia suka membaca. hahaha. that is one cute reason. haha. so aku korek lagi and aku kasitau that im hoping for her to like it. then dia admit la dia suka. oh god. hahahaha. i malu la u. hahaha. anyway aku jadi segan nak taip ape dlm ni. hahaha. and shes reading it now. urgh. tutup mukaaaa!! hahahaha. but aku tatau kenapa mlm ni,aku rasa aku nak kasitau aku sayang dia, aku miss dia. maybe sebab aku tak jumpa dia hari ni kot. im addicted to her la.aiyaaaaa!

12.21am - tc

ahaha,mana lagi kalau duduk kuantan ni,pegi mana2 pun,surely end up lepak tc. hahaha. tp tc skang lain dah. lama btol aku tak dtg. its getting nicer la. mcd pun cool,so as kfc, the scenery,the beaches. nice nice. wish she was here with me. enjoying these things. anyway, still texting her. shes getting mamai,ahaha sleepy la tu,which is friggin cute! haha. shuuhhh! im smiling while typing this. haha. and i cant stop smiling now. hahaha.

2.21am - home (kuantan)

now im back at home, just dropped mirul at his place. ingatkan nak browse around her page tonite. but then AKU TERTINGGAL CHARGER di kl! urgghhhh! what was i thinking??? mende paling penting! adoiii. dah la ni kuantan,celah mana nak cari charger at 2am ni. aku pun kuar pegi petronas, sebab normally petronas ada jual. drive la ke petronas...petronas plak tutuppppp!!! esok raya plakkkkk... terrrbaekkkkk! adoi. so aku call apis yg dah nak tido, dia cakap takde. call mirul, takde. adi,takde juga. eki and gg, takde. aku give up. aku kene save batt so aku bleh upload ni tonite. haha. siau lah. dah la before tido aku nak baca sms sms dia. adoi. fuck ah weh. apsal la handphone ni pakai bateri. apsal tak pakai petrol ke air ke. ish. budus la manufacturer handphone ni. invent la handphone yg tak pakai batt,guna bahan semula jadi. air ke sayur ke. ok aku membebel pasal batt sebab aku marah. dah dah. anyway aku draft post ni dlm lappie,then upload kejap. then disconnect phone cecepat. nnt batt weak,taleh baca sms. :D :P so this is it for tonight. even tho i got the "aku tak cakap ape ape pon" answer from her,im smiling at the moment. :) which is a great feeling that i never felt before. seriously. maybe dulu aku fall in
love time skolah,so i skipped few years. then now,its different. im 25, i can think wisely and such, and im in love. whoa. thats a great feeling weh.maybe sebab ni org jadi gila kot. aiyak. maybe its worth to be crazy la kan. :) anyway im sleepy, tomorrow hari raya. so im gonna wish u readers Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha, Maaf Zahir Batin. and pls DONT come to my house, aku tak celebrate this year. aku berdua dgn mak aku je. urgh. the end of my speechless notes.

P/S: still speechless ke? aku rasa aku dah cakap byk kali kat dia and dia da baca blog ni. hahaha. let me think bout rename this blog later k? anyway i changed my relationship status in fb from "single" to "its complicated". hmm.

:) :D :) :D :) :D :) :D :) :D :) :D :) :D :) :D :) :D :) :D :) :D :) :D :)

the end of the sorrow?

ok,skang aku kat rumah dia lagi. she read my blog,again this time. oh my. aku jadi nervous everytime dia baca. i dont know,but somehow,aku rasa dia suka baca blog aku. maybe because i spill my feelings all over here. ntah. anyway, dia baca..and baca lagi. urghhh,malu la weh. but then aku suka.. :D spent the whole night talking,bout her,bout me,bout what really happened when we were together.. :)

and aku skip keje lagi this time, hahaha. i dont know why. bila lepak dgn dia,aku rasa mcm malas pegi mana mana. hahaha. u can ask me to go to Miami skali pun, i just dont wanna go anywhere. shes lying next to me,and im holding her hand. :) :) :) tp aku tanak dia rasa uncomfortable,aku tanak dia layan aku sebab aku suka dia dan dia jaga hati aku. hmm. but i cant help it. holding her hands is like having a gun in your hand,u can do anything and u feel no fear. im holding the world at the moment. :D :D :D i just dont care. even to update this blog. hahahaha. aku siap lupa nak update apa. sebab i was 'high' on her. :P shes my greatest addiction. my ectascy. my drugs.

ok seriously, aku tanak balik kampung,and aku tanak dia balik kampung.shes going back for a long time. i cant do this. im gonna miss her. its gonna be a missing-treatment. aku tatau cemane nak handle. shes going back at 8pm. aiyoooooo. anyway dia ajak lepak aney, so we went down lepak minum. hehe. time ni dia blom tido, its been more than 24hours dia tak tido. dan dia mamai semacam. cakap pun melalut..i mean takde la melalut,tp mcm melalut la.ahaha. ah im gonna skip this. sebab aku lupa semua sebab bz tgk dia melalut in the sweet way. hehehe :)

i dont know why,looking at her,smiling,laughing,really make my day. kalau aku jd buntu,pk mcm mcm,then tgk dia,aku jadi ok. even bila aku pk pasal dia,how scare i am to lose her, aku tgk dia,aku jadi yakin. yeap. im gonna do this, no i dont care bout the risk. :D shes everything. suddenly she reminds me of a song. ah its gonna be jiwang lagi in here. hahahaha. who fuckin cares. I AM IN LOVE! so fuck off. ahahaha. anyway heres the lyrics.

Avant - I wanna be

Ooooh Ooooh I wanna be girl let me be
I wanna be everything your man's not
And I'm gonna give you
every little thing I've got
Cause you are more than a man needs
That's why I say you're truly my destiny

I'm gonna get cha
If it takes me until forever
No you don't feel me
if forever turns into never
I'll let you know my love
is just as strong
And for you never just ain't that long (ohh )

[Chorus:]

I wanna be the smile you put on your face
I wanna be your hands when you say your grace
I wanna be where ever is your favorite place (girl)
I just wanna be close

I wanna be the hat you put on your head
I wanna be the sheets you put on your bed
I wanna be the skirt wrapped around your legs (girl)
Ohh I just wanna be close


And even if the day turns into night
I will love you by candlelight
And even if the water starts to run over
I'll be there to put you on my shoulders (oo yeah)

And if it's hard for you to get to sleep{i will}
I will sing you a melody,(yes i will)
I wanna feel this way
Till the end of time, cause I pray one day
that you'll be mine
[Hook 1:]

I wanna be the smile you put on your face (your smile)
I wanna be your hands when you say your grace (can i be girl, can i be}
I wanna be where ever is your favorite place (girl)
I just wanna be close{yeah}

I wanna be the hat you put on your head(can i cover you)
I wanna be the sheets you put on your bed(can i wrap my love around you)
I wanna be the skirt wrapped around your legs (yeah.. oh)
I just wanna be close

See my life is filled(my life is filled)
with up and downs
I'm ok( im ok)
when you're around(yeah)
And when I'm in a storm(in a storm)
and my nights are cold
Reach out your hands( out your hands ) for me to hold(for me to hold)
See you're my queen( my queen )on a throne
and you're the reason (whoa)
For a song (this song) and I can't wait (cant wait)
to fill you up with love (fill you up with love)
Fill you with love


I wanna be the sun,
your stars, and your moon
I wanna be a hot summer day in June( yeah)
I wanna be the smell( be your smell
of your sweet perfume( i wanna be, i wanna be i wanna be. whoa whoa whoa)
or I just wanna be close( close to you yeah)

I wanna be the seed(yeah)
That bare(yeah) ya life brand new ( the seed that bared your life yes )
I wanna be the one
that's so faithful and true( the only one you need
I wanna be the man down that aisle
in that suit, yes
or I just wanna be close..


i heart u. :)

the biggest flaw

11.36pm - her place - not in a good mood

Hm,ok. She just read everything here. Oh ya,to make it worst, i was right beside her. Urggggggghhhhhhhhh. Ok lets break it down.

At 1st i was fine,u know,to let her read this blog. But as she scrolled down to the next post, id changed my mind. Alamaaaakkkkkkkk, watahel am i doing ni??????

Aku mcm merayu suh tutup,tp dia mcm halang and kusyuk baca. I was getting nervous. Aku tgk dia tenung je. Oh fuck. Im fucked this time. Aku dah buat satu lg mende yg aku nyesal.

Dah dah,aku still kt rumah dia,in fact dia ada kt sebelah aku,halang aku blk. Hmm.

Ok,i spent a night here. So aku mcm buntu gila kepala. Kejap suka,kejap tak. Bercelaru gila. Aku tatau apa dah aku buat dan apa aku buat skarang. Aku tatau, betul ke tak betul. Aku takut mende2 ni akan dtg pada masa akan datang dan menyusahkan aku.

the new day of the end

8.28am - Office - numb

Huarggh! back at the office again. same shit different day. condition : not so good. been a tough day yesterday. but wth,im a man plak. takkan nak down lelebih. steady la sikit kan. but then, kekadang kita terlalu lama being fake,sampai kita lupa diri kita yang real. ish.

Whoa..for the first time,aku rasa lega..and at the same time, rasa rugi, rasa nyesal, rasa mcm malas nak buat semua benda. semaknye la kepale. dah la keje bertimbun, manusia kat ofis ni mcm bengong, kat luar pun bengong jugak, aku pun bengong. adui.siap tak lapa. haha. gila poyo sial.

anyway, smlm aku end up lepak rumah dia lagi. padahal aku rabak gila. dengan tak tido nye, letih kerja nye. serious lemau gila. tp aku mcm pk blk, aku rasa sebelum aku jadi lagi lain, its better to spend time sikit dgn dia before aku jadi lagi lain. memula aku tanak pekena, but then aku tgk dia comel je gelak2 sebelah aku kepala pusing. ahehae. aku malas la bermuka seriyes je, tp aku ni,kalau stoned,aku rasa aku jadi jujur, cakap lepas je. pastu dah la mood aku tak stable, slambe nak stoned? haha. last2 aku pekena juga 2. tp ni shotgun nye style, locked and load terus dikepala. tp for the 1st time, aku rasa mlm ni kepala berat lain mcm. lain sebab mcm aku baru kenal semua org, lain mcm aku rasa aku baru 1st time pekena.

anyway, im abit bz at the moment, shes here,on ym. yea, awkward conversation i shud say. dah dah. brb.

10.37am - the office

just had my ciggie break. bosan. sejuk nak mampos. but it keeps me from falling asleep. or am i sleeping ? ahaha. anyway, since aku dah kureng ngan dia, im getting worried. bout her. ah you know. the people around her. the environment. the world itself. wish i was the superman, then maybe, maybe, things go the other way around. oh my, gotta snap outta it. stay sharp kerry. grab the bar and hold on. its gonna be a rough ride from now on.

even work also is getting boring. menyampah dah aku buat kerja ni. its different wo. no more eyeballin the handphone whenever it rings. no more expecting for her to text me, no more thinking of questions to ask her. no more strugglin to charge the freakin handphone (ok i admit, E71 has the best battery but i cant recall when was the last time my batt is fully charged! lol)

the early-morn-awkward-conversation.

lissa mohamed: alrite
Kerry: back
lissa mohamed: alrite
lissa mohamed: msti isap rokok tarik
lissa mohamed: budus
Kerry: bleh tahan la
lissa mohamed: tau sgt
Kerry: apsal kau tau plak
Kerry: kau apsal tak tido
Kerry: kang tak blk melaka kang
lissa mohamed: tau ka
lissa mohamed: la
lissa mohamed: predict keeps me safe
Kerry: good
Kerry: wish i had that ability
Kerry: tp aku mmg da predict pon jadi mcm ni
Kerry: so aku pun terer gak la
lissa mohamed: wish it when shooting star appear on u
lissa mohamed: haha
lissa mohamed: yup
lissa mohamed: hehe
Kerry: the stars hate me la
Kerry: even if i wish for a simple thing,takkan nye dpt
lissa mohamed: y the star is hatting u..? did u made some mistake on it
lissa mohamed: haha
Kerry: nah
Kerry: maybe they just fulfill certains people's wishes only
Kerry: *certain
lissa mohamed: y certain. god gave person with each shooting star
lissa mohamed: just pray and u will c it
lissa mohamed: ahah
Kerry: nah, god didnt spare one for me
Kerry: they`re too bz fulfilling other people's wishes
Kerry: and they forgot mine
Kerry: lol
lissa mohamed: noepe .god has infinate time.
lissa mohamed: nope
lissa mohamed: dun give bullshit about time
lissa mohamed: god knew
Kerry: god?
Kerry: is there god?
Kerry: hmm
Kerry: im tired
lissa mohamed: is there god..? wow
lissa mohamed: dun saqy that
lissa mohamed: sometimes god being unfair for those person he loved
Kerry: for what?
Kerry: testing him?
Kerry: testing him for what?
Kerry: his patients?
Kerry: testing him for his patients, for what? to find joy?
Kerry: thats ridiculous
Kerry: if we were meant to be happy,then happy it is
Kerry: we planned,god decide
Kerry: and the decisions usually will disappoint us
Kerry: but then we still pray to god
Kerry: even if the decision made by god is the other way around,seems like wrecklessly choose the option
lissa mohamed: thats not radiculous man'
Kerry: seems like there no option
Kerry: but its god, god made the option
Kerry: not us
Kerry: we hardly have options on life
lissa mohamed: so,how bout if just wait till the end
Kerry: we live, we feel, we suffer,then we die
lissa mohamed: i sure it will comes some miracle
Kerry: thats is the definition of life
Kerry: nah
lissa mohamed: we dont know
Kerry: i know
Kerry: god took everything, for what?
lissa mohamed: we dont know when the time should be
Kerry: for me to live happy?
Kerry: oh thats bs
lissa mohamed: thats y we callled miracle
Kerry: i mean bullshit
Kerry: miracle dont happen
Kerry: miracle is only for those who live by not making any action due to the decision made by god
Kerry: and me, im making my own decision from now on
Kerry: im tired of being me
Kerry: being good wont make u feel good
Kerry: trust me
Kerry: things not always comes around
Kerry: lifes not always in a circle
lissa mohamed: laa..
lissa mohamed: jgn la camnie
Kerry: karma doesnt always happen
lissa mohamed: im just joking about the shooting star
lissa mohamed: y have take it in the serious way
Kerry: im not
lissa mohamed: y u have
Kerry: just telling u what life is, and how god make us live
Kerry: its funny how life works
Kerry: we lived, to be miserable
Kerry: haha
Kerry: then whats the point of living? kan ?
Kerry: tak paham btol
Kerry: this is the problem
Kerry: my problem is, im a human
Kerry: wish i could turn myself into a tv ke radio ke
lissa mohamed: its fate
Kerry: ah fate
Kerry: the word of the wisdom
Kerry: fate
Kerry: dah la
lissa mohamed: u r human cuz u deserved god way to be human ..
Kerry: aku tatau nak cakap ape dah
lissa mohamed: rather to be an animals
Kerry: nah,its hard to be a human
Kerry: i rather be an animal kot
Kerry: u dont have feelings
Kerry: dont have to worry a thing
Kerry: makan,tido,mati
Kerry: simple je life
Kerry: tayah serabut2
Kerry: byk aku bebel
Kerry: dah la
Kerry: .

got back home at lunch - listening to HIM - Dark Lights (the best of all time) chatted with her for few minutes (ok,im gonna post less bout her from now on, shes been asking to come in here to read this with u guys, wat do u guys think? shud i? or by doing that, seems like im asking for sympathy,well thats pathetic kan? ) anyway, im heading to the office now. urgh.

3.52pm - office - bosan dan malas buat keje

hmm.apsal la aku asyik duk post lagi dlm ni. its over dah pun, but im still here, posting some boring-new-daily-routine of mine. urgh. but i dont think tu boleh jamin aku jadi ok.urgh. hari ni kerja mcm haram. satu mende aku tak buat. aku duduk, melangok je keje, online, isap okok, melangok lagi..gila babi tak productive. must do something, must go somewhere. huargh! well, this coming dec i`ll probably be in Indo for few days.tatau ape motif.amir bz dgn tourist.dimas shooting.aiyo. gotta get some rest, the mind need some rest. or maybe i`ll be moving back to shah alam after that. hmm. let me think bout it then. anyway, bosan bosan bosan. dan tension tension tension. tak paham, dan tanak paham. nak balik,tido sampai esok. tata.

additional. - 4.18pm

hmm. just off the phone with her.i dont know why i called her. maybe im just used to it.i was just wondering and worried bout her. oh my, i got carried away. hmm..she sounds kinda slow-tonation but seems normal. glad to hear then. she was in the car,with a friend,picking up gert. thats all.

the life changing moment.

1.29pm - office

oh my, im at work. work is tiring. ala,kerja apa tak letih kan. anyway, pagi tadi aku ada sms dia,no report received. batt tade kot. around 1pm td baru dpt sms from her "sore mlm td aku tido". and shes not going back today, dia cakap gert tak kasi dia blk,so shes going back tomorrow,by bus. then aku offer la nak hantar. no reply lagi.

ape ape pun,mlm ni aku kene cite sikit pada dia. sikit je, tp aku tatau nak cite sikit cemane. ish. must think of something. i cant spill everything verbally. aku jd kejang otot nnt. paham2 la, surely dia say no. but then takkan nak buat muka tak malu. malu seh. ish.

so ptg nnt,aku update lagi..brb

ok its 3.44pm

tadi aku msg dia,tanya dia mcm mcm, hehe. anyway dia blk esok,by bus. and shes taking the tren to the bus station. aku rasa mcm nak tapau kuih utk dia, so aku sms la dia tanya. then dia cakap dia nak goreng pisang je. ahehaehe. padahal aku ade byk gila makanan. hmm tape la. dia tamo. aheahe. so sambung kerja..hiyah! dah la byk plak MTO hari ni. urghh...

back to work.

5.41pm - her place. ;)

Yea i know. Back at the same shit. What can i do. Cant get enuff of her. Huhu. Dia tak jd blk melaka, and now shes alone. Thats y dia suh dtg teman dia. :) anyway, i brought some goreng pisang and choc cake.

Shes in front of the lappie. Layan rc. oh my. then dia suh cite pasal tu. Aiyoooo.. Aku ckp, "mlm kann..kan aku dah janji nak cite malam" haha. Then dia ckp aku ngelat. Hahaha. Tape la babe. Susah la aku nk ckp. Aku suka kau. Thats it. simple as that.

Mati la aku mcm ni.adoyai.

chapter skipped.

Finally..the moment of truth.. At 6.32pm,after been pushed bagai nak gila.. i said it.."aku dah start suka kau"...

Well,what do u expect? not every story got a happy ending. Thats typical anyway. chin up kerry. Life aint never be fair. so thats it. Sorry la aku delete web lama aku. Aku siap tumpu pada sini plak. and thanks again sbb xkomen kt sini. Apa apa,pg primary blog aku ok?

No worries,every life story ada reason dia. There are still 6 of her out there. :) the word 'never' aint too long for me. Chow.